The Guilt!

I am wondering tonight how many other moms out there find themselves feeling "guilty"...no matter what choice they make. My dear husband stayed home from work today to take care of our oldest, who has a fever of 102. As I am leaving with my 2 year old to drop her at preschool, he is crying that he just wants mommy. The guilt for not staying home....indescribable. I know he is home with daddy, but I should be cuddling him today. Then, we get to preschool only to find out that my daughter's sheet was dirty from a potty accident the day before, and I forgot to check on this. So, when we got there the sheet was put nicely in a plastic bag waiting to go home and be washed. Sure they had spares for her to sleep on, but the guilt knowing my daughter would not be able to nap on her own sheet...horrible. I called for a substitute teacher today to work in my room tomorrow. Dylan is still not feeling well and I told Ryan I would stay home tomorrow. I am also scheduled to be out of the classroom on Friday for a math workshop all day. The guilt for not being with my classroom children for two days in the same week...stomach turning. 

Seriously, does it end. My mom has told me before that guilt is self-inflicted. I totally believe she is right. I know I wouldn't be human if I didn't feel a little guilty. But come on? Is all of this guilt necessary?

My sweet boy sat on the bed tonight telling daddy something as he was drying Emma off from the bath. After he was done, Dylan announced, " I am done talking now." Made me laugh out loud. Emma wants to know everyday if you remember her favorite song, "Twinkle, twinkle song." She loves for you to count to three, sing it to her and rub her back before bed. So precious. The guilt is all self inflicted. My children love me and know I am doing the very best I can for them. My students, they know that I am a mommy too and that is why I care about them so much too! They understand that I need to be mommy 100% tomorrow. Even the students' parents emailed me wishing that Dylan would feel better soon.

Guilt is completely self inflicted. I need to give myself more credit that I am doing the best I can. I am always wishing for two more hours in the day, or a way to clone myself. God gave us 24 hours in a day for a reason. Make the most of those hours. Work, play, rest, enjoy. And don't feel guilty!